Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I got to say filming with Stolz
Batt Matt's
I don't think thats for me to choose.
yellow
idk maybe like not that long
nope, just average plus who cares about looks so much.
S.W.A.T
myself
Subway
kiwi strawberry soda
um. like never.
justin sinclair
sure, things are good
um, i think "Dawn of a new World sure is kinda long and weird"
jacket pocket
brown
nope
Jn
Yes
Trip to Mexico i guess, since that is the only i go. Or the islands trip.
not being able to see someone enough.
i was listening to postal service or was it chris tomlin.one of those.
A driver's license
i don't know fresh air.
knowing Jesus died for me someone who doesn't deserve it.
sleeping idk why wouldn't i be sleeping
May 6
some girl in my English class, in front of me.
it's been a while so like a month or so
when i get bored and get a good laugh
Subway
It's good no big reason to complain
not really but i got a bracelet. Is that jewelery
Facebook
40 in a parking lot & 60 with my dad teaching me
nope
History was till hard to understand
Nope,
I don't really know what to say to that.
Not really, some MMA and musical talents
True Love by Phil Wickham
yea i like singing but i admit i don't think i am good
graphic Designer, Animation would be cool, Web Designer, Or Film making
Most of my family that i know lives here in town.
3 siblings
not really cause i work for things
Got to put up devo
why yes, lots of water and some soda and some juice
Spanish, some japanese, learning thai from the thai kid in class.
yes, the hint is raccoon (lrotrs orf trirmes)
no, but i wish i could be a best man some time
Nope,
Nope
Aarron Feeney and Sergio Martinez
Yes, lots
Nah, i am ok how i am
I hate gossipers very much
Oh you bet
Nope
I say cleaning things
Not me driving but batt matt took me home
Yes, Mexico
Cottage Hospital
Yea but not the fact of leaving people i care for
i don't know
Think about it and tell me who. haha (^-^)
like at school when things got so weird
1 pair
never
none
sleeping for the rest of the night
If you count betting who could run faster
i think it's been a month
Do i ever
Yea i been there
Lelouch Lampourgne or Ichigo, Or Lloyd, or Allen
Tofu
clear right now
yea
wave it in the air at a show
Like 3 weeks ago
California
nope
nope
A 4x4 car that romps like crazy with good gas milage haha
nope
what do you think then tell me

Oh Very Happy, i am so glad in what i been given.

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

YES ON 8! OBEY GOD.
This is the comment that started it all

Brigette: no on 8!
Juan: Yes on 8. Go Markus
Brigette: no its wrong and unconstitutional

Chris: you wanna know whats wrong and unconstitutional? you guys telling the "yes" people they are wrong for wanting to voice what they believe in. they do not have any less rights than you to say what they feel is right and then when they do, all of a sudden a million people label them a bad person and tell them they are wrong. im sick of it.

Orion: Unconstitutional at best. It really is a testament to the religious influence on this countries government that it was allowed to become a valid proposition (again) in the first place. NO ON 8!

Brigette: chris your right. but that is right as well. theres a reason we have a separation of church and state

Nora: I disagree completely, but I doubt I'm going to convince you that it's discriminatory. ;] I'm not gonna' judge you on your opinion on this matter. You have your opinion, I have mine. Frankly, we'll all find out whether it passes tonight, and arguments over whether it is constitutional notwithstanding, I'll be glad not to see the ads and flames any more.

Juan: well you should read the bible. It says in various parts. such as in Deuteronomy 22:5 "A woman shall not wear man's clothing, nor shall a man put on a woman's clothing; for whoever does these things is an abomination to the Lord your God." or in Genesis 2 when it talks about the creation of man. it states, verse 20
" but for Adam there was not found a helper suitable for him. 21. So the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon the man, and he slept; then He took one of his ribs and closed up the flesh at that place. 22. The Lord God fashioned into a woman the rib which He had taken from the man, and brought her to the man.
23.The man said,
"This is now bone of my bones,
and flesh of my flesh;
she shall be called Woman,
Because she was taken out of Man."
24. for this reason a man shall leave his father and his mother, and be joined to his wife; and they shall become one flesh."

Brigette: im really not religious. but this is why there is supposed to be separation between church and state

Orion: And yet, in this, you completely disregard the possibility that others may not share your beliefs. Not everyone lives by the bible, a book which (in my honest opinion) was meant to be taken figuratively and morally, not literally.
Brigette: your so right. its supposed to give you a guideline of how to be ethical and a good person right?

Chris: well why are people who decide to follow the bible's teachings suddenly bad people if we are as you say, "follow the guidelines on how to be a good person"
i myself, have NO problem against gay people, i do not deny them any rights as people, or as americans. sure there are a lot of radicals out there who are anti-gay, but they are ignorant. i however, am not ignorant to what other people choose to believe in and dont condemn them for it. but as a christian, i choose to follow the bible's teachings as much as i can, and i should not be criticized for that. neither do i say that you are wrong for choosing to vote no on prop 8, that is your individual right.

Markus: hey everyone

Juan: Well the bible is a book on how to live life. There is no such thing as a good person. for we are all sinners and have all fallen short.
Look i am not saying i have anything against Gays or anything. I am just stating what the bible has to say about this type of situation. Such as in marriage. It's what i follow.

Markus: i don't got nuthin gainst gays, but i'm goin along with my God.

Nora: My next several comments are designated to be read as one. Just to let you know. ;] Spent about half an hour writing it out.

Nora: So, Markus:

Thank you for doing so much to educate people regarding God's Law. I do need some advice from you, however, regarding some of the specific laws and how to best follow them.

a) When I burn a bull on the altar as a sacrifice, I know it creates a pleasing odor for the Lord (Lev 1:9). The problem is my neighbors. They claim the odor is not pleasing to them. Should I smite them?

b) I would like to sell my daughter into slavery, as sanctioned in Exodus 21:7. In this day and age, what do you think would be a fair price for her?

c) I know that I am allowed no contact with a woman while she is in her period of menstrual uncleanliness (Lev 15:19-24). The problem is, how do I tell? I have tried asking, but most women take offense.

d) Lev. 25:44 states that I may indeed possess slaves, both male and female, provided they are purchased from neighboring nations. A friend of mine claims that this applies to Mexicans, but not Canadians. Can you clarify? Why can't I own Canadians?

Nora: e) I have a neighbor who insists on working on the Sabbath. Exodus 35:2 clearly states he should be put to death. Am I morally obligated to kill him myself?

f) A friend of mine feels that even though eating shellfish is an Abomination (Lev 11:10), it is a lesser abomination than homosexuality. I don't agree. Can you settle this?

g) Lev 21:20 states that I may not approach the altar of God if I have a defect in my sight. I have to admit that I wear reading glasses. Does my vision have to be 20/20, or is there some wiggle room here?

h) Most of my male friends get their hair trimmed, including the hair around their temples, even though this is expressly forbidden by Lev 19:27. How should they die?

NORA: i) I know from Lev 11:6-8 that touching the skin of a dead pig makes me unclean, but may I still play football if I wear gloves?

j) My uncle has a farm. He violates Lev 19:19 by planting two different crops in the same field, as does his wife by wearing garments made of two different kinds of thread (cotton/polyester blend). He also tends to curse and blaspheme a lot. Is it really necessary that we go to all the trouble of getting the whole town together to stone them? (Lev 24:10-16) Couldn't we just burn them to death at a private family affair like we do with people who sleep with their in-laws? (Lev. 20:14)

Thank you again for reminding us that God's word is eternal and unchanging.

Juan: Ok. Let me give you a little info. I noticed most of these are from the old testament. It's good that you know of the old laws. but did you know that was of the old covenant which those laws are part of.

In total there were more then 800 laws in which you had to follow. could you tell me how would one person follow these laws. They couldn't so in that they would go and do animal sacrifice, in which they would only cover up their sins for that short period in which they would sin again and do the same thing again and again. It only covered our sins. It never took away the sins for good. that's until Jesus showed up and died on the cross with our sins. He did it so our sins could be taken away for good.

In which making the old covenant replaced with the new one.
In which we have to confess to say he is our Lord and Savior and he will wash all sins away. In thus making the old covenant not what we follow anymore. As long as you confess Jesus as your Savior

Nora: I realize this. However, the fact still remains that the texts that talk about gay marriage being a sin are from the Old Testament as well.

Juan: I am saying how the old laws are not what we follow because of Jesus Christ making the new covenant. In which we can confess the Lord our sins. Without killing a animal for our sins or laws we don't follow.
Juan: well if you look in the new testament there is verses that talk about homosexuality

Nora: I'm a little less learned about the new testament. ;] Thanks for letting me know.
Still- if I could vote, I'd still be staunchly against proposition 8. I applaud you for sticking to your stance on the issue.

Juan: I applaud you for stating those questions. but can i give the verse i was about to give you about it in the new testament. From what i know from the top of my head.
The one is Romans 1:24-27
"24.Therefore God gave them over in the lusts of their hearts to impurity, so that their bodies would be dishonored among them.
25. For they exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served the creature rather than the Creator, who is blessed forever, Amen.
26. For this reason God gave them over to degrading passions; for their women exchanged the natural function for that which is unnatural,
27.and in the same way also the men abandoned the natural function of the woman and burned in their desire toward one another, men with men committing indecent acts and receiving in their own persons the due penalty of their error."

Ryan: If you would allow me to throw my two cents in:
The Messianic Law (Old Testament Law) can be divided into three categories:
Civil law: those for the specific governing of the nation of Israel (includes tribal governmental structure, Years of Jubilee, provisions for cities of refuge, etc.)
Ceremonial law: those outlining specifics for the Hebrew worship structure (such as ritual cleansings, acceptable sacrifices, priestly garments, and the suchlike)
Moral law: those that are true for all people at all times (murder, theft, adultery, and so on)
Of these, the moral laws are ratified by the New Testament and therefore still apply to humanity today, even if the other two categories no longer apply. This is because moral laws are based on God's character which does not change, ever.

So, about the list Nora threw out there, I believe all of those fell under the two categories that no longer apply.

Hope that helps!

Juan: thank you for clearing things up, i just forgot a lot of the things.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

1. Where is your cell phone? Next to me for any messages or phone calls i get.
2. Your significant other? .....
3. Your hair? somewhat curly and straight sometimes
4. Your skin? somewhat of a tan color.
5. Your mother? working
6. Your favorite thing? Jesus
7. Your dream last night? I was falling down from the sky and hit the ocean and then i appear at some white room and then i was at a wedding then woke up.
8. Your favorite drink? idk some kind of drink
9. Your dream/goal? i want to be a animator. or a graphic designer. or a film maker.
10. The room you're in? bed
11. Your ex? never had one. I hope i don't ever do.
12. Your fear? messing up something that is so great.
13. Where do you want to be in 6 years? finished with college.
14. What you're not?a perfect person instead i am a idot and very shy & could be stupid at times
15. Muffins? blueberry
16. One of your wish list items? nothing i got everything i need already.
17. Where you grew up? santa barbara and carpinteria
18. The last thing you did? get a ride home
19. What are you wearing? clothes like pants and a shirt and a bracelet on my right hand.
20. Your TV? is movie night
21. Your pet(s)? 2 dogs and one bird
22. Your computer? somewhat new
23. Your life? is small but fulfilling
24. Your mood? exhausted
25. Missing someone? yea, i am.
26. Your car? um maybe soon. i am planning to drive soon.
27. Something you're not wearing? shoes and socks
28. Favorite store? it could be borders, eb, coffee bean, or just play music
29. Summer time? oh this summer was very amazing
30. Like someone? yea, i do. i do like someone.
31. Your favorite color? blue, green,
32. When is the last time you laughed? today
33. Last time you cried? months ago
34. Who will reply to this? i don't know maybe all you
36. Whose answers are you anxious to see? um i don't know

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Hello everyone

What do you get when you get 5 guys together for one night of celebration

well this video so enjoy


Tuesday, September 02, 2008

Wow so its been awhile but this new update is the best so far.
Or so i think so.
it's great because in a matter of days this will become really fun and important to this blog.
so watch this video i made for that day.

it's fun and so many memories.


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Monday, August 04, 2008

So this whole week i haven't been able to sleep really. i have tried really hard but i just end up pacing or do a small workout, like some pushups. The other night i still couldn't sleep so i just end up playing this game i have called stepmania. this is how nerdy i am when i can't sleep and when i am just bored. but mostly when i can't sleep.

So Enjoy my Nerdy Game

drop a comment




Sunday, July 27, 2008

SO i was babysitting tonight
My little sister is a fan of Hannah Montana and this is what we did.
when a concert is on tv
and one more word to add Sponsors.




and a picture



Thursday, July 17, 2008

you got 4 options to choose for me
the one with the most votes
me and my friend will do and we might perform



Wednesday, July 16, 2008

A new host and a some fun

enjoy the special host of the day.

juany will be back next time


Thursday, July 10, 2008

Gather children and friends for a story.

on the wednesday of july 9.
Friends and i went around the time of 11 pm.
to a pool of the friend.
We swam and ran around there for 30 mins.
Everything was fun till the police came and we wanted to be gone.
We stayed and got asked questions.
Everyone was free except for me
i was a minor of 16 and eveyone else was a adult of 18
I was taken away by the cop, he treated me like a child.
When we arrived at my house.
He talked to my parents, i was calm in the car.
He came back and unlocked the back door.
He told to not go out past 11.

besides everything else i want to go swim again.
and no cops please

thank you


Monday, July 07, 2008


What makes my blog run.
1. headphone set
2.ipod music
3.maxtor external hard drive
4.wireless keyboard and mouse
5. and most in important of all my hp 17" inch laptop computer

i don't know i just thought to include what i use to make the blog run so yea

bye

Sunday, July 06, 2008

Ok so things are changing this year. alot. such things go from Ryan Hillner and zoey overton or should i say Zoe Hillner. Yes they are engaged and soon to be married this august. That is number one change. Leaders for the youth have been leaving like mad in the year but it's ok we love them and accept what they choose to do. chris targoni has a girlfriend and she is a cool person but it's funny how he ended up getting a girlfriend. Christopher Don Lazo just got engaged today 7-6-08. amazing to Brianna. I am glad for him and everyone should be. Mike honeyman got a girlfriend she is also a nice girl and totally loves the lord so its a good match with him. Moving on, Dan Ramming or Ramrod is having a son, and he going to be more busy but hey the next ramrod is going to be born soon. thats like all the leaders that have changed a lot this year and wonderful things to them. i am not writing this to call them out or anything but instead i am writing this so i can say to each and everyone of you it's been good knowing, you all. It's been a blessing and seeing the people that have made your lives even more wonderful.

i myself has changed alot, each one of you has shown me what was wrong with me before, the first step of change is to get out of your comfort zone right. Each one of you have made me get out of my comfort zone. I remember when i first came to Reality i was a timid kid with no ounce of courage or bravery at all. I remember it all started with two people that kept me doing the crazy stuff that i thought i would never do. My mind was straight forward, my kindness was not so good, my actions affected people. Each and everyone of you has made me into who i am today

Ryan.... Zoe i thank both of you for that boast of encouragement. I remember the memories we three have but now that you two are getting married, i know your lives will be even better. I love the mold you gave me. I got out there and knew that i can't be scared of the little things of life. I remember Zoe that we used to do some much things to your house and to you yourself. Ryan you made go and do actions, i changed from that timid life to one that i can feel accomplished as a man. I am the now a hoodlum of some sort with stolz. And one thing i want you to remember Stolz and the guys predicted your marriage so know it was all in the lord my main man.

Chris Targoni you have been a friend most of all even when i didn't want you to be at first. You were always so happy and cheerful and stinky at first. I remember the days i was a junior higher and i was stupid. You still didn't know what to do so you bought a book on how to deal with junior highers. You always everything a game, i remember those days like no other. You were the first leader that taught me more then dom. I am glad i get to met you and also i glad that you found someone just like you. A funny, random topic, and super nice personality to everyone with the same cheerful smile that shines to everyone. I am glad for both you and Genevieve. This is a thanks for you Christopher, i have learned alot from you and i have learned to always give that same smilie for people that need it even when they don't want it. It's funny how you the person i never thought i learn from taught me more then i ever wanted to know. And for that i thank you Chris

Christopher Don Lazo, you my friend have taught me how to defend my self where it comes to my faith and reason, you challenge me to think more of the options i choose. You have made me think about my actions and what good or bad it serves to the point of use. You have made my mind mold more into a deep thinker. That is why when i think, i come up with many of the possible ideas to my actions. you molded my brain to be like a scholar of some sort. It was a mold of deep debates and each one of those debates i lost to you. You are the scholar that has made my mind and others change and that is why i am more of the person i am. That is why i am writing this for you and the others, it is time for you and the rest to be thanked for all the wonderful actions and things you have done for me. So Christopher Don Lazo i thank you my friend with this great help you given me. I will still come to you for help but man you need more time with your future wife Brianna haha.

Mike honeyman you are always so graceful to the person even if you don't know them. you will go to a far reach to do that person a great favor. I don't know you as good as the rest of the leaders but you kinda taught me to be kind to those even when they don't know you. I am still working on that but hey man the lord blessed me by knowing you.

Dan Ramming, you are always so busy but you have always .... well actually i don't really know what you have done in my life but you are a blessing to know. i am hoping for the next ramrod to be as great as you have been great to me. I know you will be a great father even when you are in troubled times. Yet isn't that what Jesus did for us, in troubled times he was always a father to us and did so much for us. you will be the same a father, a worker, and a friend. It's been great knowing you. more than anything else i can remember how you are super into mexican culture, it's like you are in mexican culture but i am super into japanese culture. It's funny but it's great that you are a friend. now i know you won't be around as much because of your kid but hey i love that you let me as a friend. So i thank you Dan

When i been writing this for all of you i noticed it almost sounds like a will or something along those lines but it shouldn't be a will. Its a thank you for what each and everyone of you did my life. For the last time i thank you all for what you did in my life.

Now i got someone in my mind right now, i won't say who it is but this person is the next person i should thank. It's wonderful how each person i meet that has met you all has been a blessing to know. So now i am to go off. I want to grow up and be just like each and one of you. i already got a little bit of all of you in my mind. Either it be the courage, bravery, the mind to think, kindness, sympathy, and a interest. Its great that you will be here to teach me more in the years to come. I got a few more years till i am thrown out in the world and i know wherever i go i will have your memories and your teachings with me.


So Thank You For Everything

From Juan

Monday, June 30, 2008

well this was to fix my boredom but enjoy
i called it randomization but not really


Friday, June 27, 2008

wow ok so this afternoon i noticed a snoopy puzzle box and it seemed to be easy and fun and something to get rid of my boredom

which it did but the thing is hard
i just spent 3 and a half hours working on a small part of it

so here is how it first looked when i started in the first 2 hours


amazing right how i could get this far and so this is suppose to be the easy one

now this is my finish product of the beginning


so i purpose a idea
this idea is great
i call it the snoopy project
i am to take a photo of what i have done in overall and see how long it will take me to finish the whole puzzle
now this puzzle has about 1026 pieces and i think i knocked out about 150
so wish me luck and

this is Day 1

~Juany puzzling out~

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

ok so this is new
i just got back from summer camp which was amazing and intense
lots of injuries and lots of tubing
well anyway this is not the topic for today but instead a stupid problem
which we had to get talked by cops
over this stupid lock that does nothing


well anyways it was stupid but good thing i wasn't caught recording it
so here is the video
it's not that long but enjoy

~Juany Signing out~


Tuesday, June 17, 2008

ok so i thought about it for awhile and i choose to make some kind of different video
please watch it all the way through till the end

Ok so this my new kind of video that's not of me or anyone really but more of things and shows

so enjoy the Code Geass Recommendation
Leave comments and see the full thing straight to the end please

also if you want the real show up i can put it up but only one episode


enjoy



Monday, June 16, 2008

Ok so this is a quick update i call it


Garrett Green and Food

enjoy leave comments


Thursday, June 12, 2008

Ok so i had 23 seconds left of film and this is my update on how ryan's truck stinks

and for ryan this is some news for you
and he is a hint on who is a part of this

1. tall
2. gun control
3. mexican

that's all

and here is the 23 second video


Sunday, June 08, 2008

This is a new video this covers,

the thailand fundraising, garrett green, me being on youtube, and poloroid cameras

p.s. the person who said you can never have youtube videos that people would watch

that person was wrong my good friends

and the music in this video is my morning mix playlist from my ipod

i wake up to this and start my day enjoy

and i noticed the music is kinda loud so try your hardest i don't want to edit again.


Wednesday, June 04, 2008

this is for all Juanyatsea fans or viewers that come back

this is behind the scenes on how i make things happen

This is me doing the post for Reality Staff video

nothing really special to regualr people but i want you to find it special though

so here is the behind the scenes
p.s. i hate my laugh in this one


ok so this a small video in the reality staff room


there is more to come

for now watch me being silly trying to do this post next time there will be some behind the scenes.


Sunday, June 01, 2008

Today i went on a hike with Sarah Plude, (or so i think her last name is spelled like that)

so here's the story for you people.
woke up at 12:00 p.m. today and took a shower
i have a voice mail since of 9:23 a.m
so i was super late on the phone call but i still call back
It was sarah and she wanted to go on a hike with people but no one called her back


So we went up on this hike in the Carpinterian mountains.
We had fun there is this old abandon cabin and it was strange there and filled with people's hatred but it was still cool

So that's the story

and i still feel bad because i thought today was Saturday and i forgot about Chruch but i will get a dvd. And hopefully don't get ryan to hurt me

So here's some pics..

Juany signing out

enjoy the pics guys and comment so i know what you think

ok


Saturday, May 24, 2008

INDIANA JONES 4

so you all know the new indiana jones movie
that has just come out right well do i got some new material for you


just a few things came to be for me
a tax refund
a store that convince me buy a series of manga that ends up being confusing.

A new cd
And two games one for my cousin's birthday and one for me to be entertain again.
ran into two friends that were confused if i was in town or not and how i arrived
and a candy store that can tempt someone to do something stupid

a starbucks and the ruining of a dinner date for ryan
let's see the pics and the movies yea







and finally the movei



till next time

this is your host
Juany
splashing out

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

ok people recently the videos have been the main course for like a month already but they are being slowly made but don't worry. there will be more it's just nothing is my head right now and also that i don't seem to find the time for the videos but i will

just like i promised i will continue working on those

and the lord provides if he wills it ok

haha

Sunday, May 18, 2008

music session with aaron feeny and pat

check it out




worship conference

may 3-4

it was very fun with phil wickham

this is a few clips i took






Thursday, May 08, 2008

Missing dog

A small white dog with brownish spots. Lost in carpinteria. If anyone of you see this dog please contact me at 259-9558. Also the name is Lola and she has a pink collar

Thursday, May 01, 2008

new ipod
i finally got a new 80 gig ipod after my old one was jacked from ryan's car

so i am happy and i don't have to pay 50 bucks no more

it's a story to tell another time

but in all i am just happy

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

clothes and jesus

trying a new uploader it's called veoh so that's where my video is on right
now


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Monday, April 28, 2008

this video's music is the best and the video itself is pretty funny



Sunday, April 27, 2008

the place where i imagine and live

this is the tour and more

enjoy


Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Tuesday, April 01, 2008

so waking up this morning was different so yesterday night we got into my friend's lazo bed and cuddle next to him to freak him out and so we did that and then left him alone but at 5 am he wakes up and yells GOOD MORNINNGGGGGGGGGGGGGG! and runs outs the door

Monday, March 31, 2008

Hey everyone i am here up at westmont college. So far it's been a cool stay i think i got a bit sick from the night but that's the beauty of random happens but yea it's been really mellow with my fellow friend chris targoni. Nothing wrong with mellow but it's been so good just being up in a different place then a place you feel more comfortable. well there has been some intersting topics such as the cults in surronding areas. Really intense topics. and everyone i know from my last trip up here have been sort of excited to see me.

i hope anyone reading this getting the chance to come up to this wonderful campus and meet the same people i have. they give you that warm family feeling. Well chris is off to one of his classes and i am here on the ladies couch doing this blog update i guess. It's amazing how things are just mellow and relaxing here instead of having to do everything you need to do first to go on through the day.

well i forgot to say the reason i am up here

well my fellow readers i am glad to say i am on spring break and sleeping up at westmont for the night and leaving this evening.
I am here to visit those who gave me such a warm welcome when i first came here and to spend some quality time with my friends chris, andrew, and manual. haha i mispelled his name but o well

with that i bid you a good day


Sunday, March 23, 2008

1234 by Feist


Happy easter to all of you
it's been a long time since i last login but that is going to change
i know i have said that before but this time i am reallly going to try
i got so much to say